His joy will be my strength;

• 6:03 AM, Sunday, June 29, 2008

fellowship sunday was amazing!

spent most of it with my sec 3 small group... haha at the SICC bowing alley. pictures will come soon i hope. and yes i got two strikes! MUAHAHA. :D i dont know why im so happy about that. but yes. it was fun spending time with all the girls and guys in the small group. :)) sorry bc that i wasnt able to spend as much time with you... had some other stuff to settle. but you guys know i love you anyway. <3

god's been speaking about service to me alot this week. through pdl, through opportunities i never dreamed would come to me and im grateful for all that. in fact, only one more purpose to go in purpose driven life for mentoring and after that im gna start on the book on being a servant of god, seeing as it comes so highly recommended by stace. :D awesome.

anyway school starts officially AGAIN tomorrow. and results should be flooding back in so keep me in prayer.

god's been showing himself so really faithful this week and its all i can do to give him all the praise and glory he so rightfully deserves. :D

con ogni respiro che prendo

for anyone curious, its italian. it means with every breath i take.

and thats the kind of worship i want to give god in my life.

• 4:18 AM, Tuesday, June 24, 2008

hello world!

been feeling sick since the exams started... had fever since this morning when i was taking econs in the hall because the AC was on and it was freaking colddddddd. brrrrr. even with a jacket. :S when we were studying for lit, asyraf was like, "sam you're freaking hot!" and in true nicole tan fashion i went, "thank you!" HAHAHA. omg. but yeah. i was feeling hot cold hot cold hot cold throughout the entire exam and just when i thought in lit it was going to be better because no AC in the classrooms-- guess what? they specially turned it on for the exams! OMG. spent another two hours feeling like crap.

but it was okay la. i hope i didnt screw up my econs. hopefully lit was alright.. i've got no complaints about that somewhat. but im still feeling like ive just been rolled over by a monster truck so please pray. fever's climbing up down up down too. :S

yupp. god;s been good. i love my msn jesus girls! :) and the boys! (if i got to know all of them better, not just kenneth. heh.) i told matthew that and he was like, good good! :D i cant wait seeing as how im going with them for the earlier part of the day, later going for bc fellowship HAHA. :)

I've just been really blessed. :)

• 6:28 AM, Thursday, June 19, 2008

long long week. im just ready to collapse.

been studying at ywca this entire week and i bet the church staff there, gladwin included is getting rather sick of me popping in everyday just to steal his jacket and take milo and just talk alot of crap, in a very very loud voice. but okay la. i would say its been fruitful somewhat. tomorrow is going to be a busy busy busy day indeed. meeting kexin at city hall at 9 to pick up gp notes, heading over to ywca for a while, meeting stacy and cel later at 1230 to eat lunch and then meeting the sls people for a movie at 3 something, and then band prac. OMG OMG OMG. i feel tired just reciting all this.

good points of this week:

lunch with kexin (thanks for specially making time to come down and eat with me! that was so so so much fun.)

dinner with elsie and zhixin (we are the CAMWHORE QUEENS! haha. and so is elsie apparently! he looks so cute in his card that i stole from his wallet HEHE.)

bad points of this week:

its only 3 more days to gp exam and i am S-C-R-E-W-E-D.

lately i've realised how imperfect i am... it kind of gets me down alot lately i dont know why either. but i just remember, thats why im made worthy and perfect in god's sight. :)

• 7:28 AM, Friday, June 13, 2008

A01 A01 A01 A01 A01 A01! :)

our outing came at long last! went to cathay with lizhu to catch a movie with my beloved a01-ers, and there was raja, pin xuan, elsie, xiaoxi, lizhu, me and marian! jing min joined us later for the movie! and guess what we watched?

THE HAPPENING.

omg. i thought the eye was scary. this is even worse can. im such a scaredy cat. and like i went around telling everyone after the movie, i dont care im not letting pin xuan pick movies EVER-- such a waste of 6 bucks can. we could have watched something happy and nice like kungfu panda or prince caspian (ben barnes!) but no we had to watch this show which talks about how the plants can release this chemical into the air which makes people want to commit suicide :S

it was super freaky! yes im sorry im a scaredy cat. i spent majority of the movie covering my ears and closing my eyes--- it was really graphic. and i actually considered walking out halfway through the movie. thats just how bad it was. i think its fright factor was more of the suddenness of it all, the gore etc. yeah. there was this part of the movie where i was actually really really scared, like paralysed to my seat in fright kind of thing. yeah. needless to say. im never watching a movie made by this director AGAIN.

but it was good seeing my a01 darlings again. so i guess it was okay la.

anyway to backtrack abit, i went to the MSN JESUS bbq the night before and it was really good. im really loving matthew's small group but yet, im still not sure if god's calling me there sooooo, we'll just have to wait and see.

• 7:36 AM, Wednesday, June 11, 2008

hahah! this is just a short post. i've been away for quite some time at young leader's retreat and bc retreat but i havent really talked about it! yes im aware.

ill just put up some thoughts about the bc retreat and the ylt in general. so that you guys have something to chew on.

BC RETREAT was insanely good it should be illegal to have so much fun. :P the zoo was great. even though it rained and we prayed that it would stop i think it worked out for the best after all because the weather was nice and cooling throughout our entire excursion and i got to hang out with ronda who's such a darling. it was good seeing the bc-ians together once more. JIN'S HOUSE IS THE BOMB! its got this relaxed vibe to it with all that wood around and i know now where im gna live if i ever have no place to stay. not to mention chalky his dog is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE! omg. hahaha. watched she's the man, my new favourite movie---channing tatum!!!! haha. and then the bbq was fun. we saw aiden again after such a long time and had a good time sitting around with the bc girls just talking about nothing in particular. and yes. we had a bit to drink, which was interesting. hehs. all i can say is thank god i didnt try the tiramisu like nicole tan. :P

overall i guess bc retreat was good. really made me realise just how much i cant do without the bc-ians and how much i;ve missed them in general. and im glad to have gotten to know rondayboo better! HAHAHA.

ylt was great too. ill never forget the night though. how we stayed up really late. how after prayer and sharing which was good, we (glenn, mil, jotham, glad, stacy, me, glenda, justin) were listening to adriel talk about the different religions and christianity. how we headed over to glad and jotham and justin's room to play polar bear until 3 in the morning and listen to the xtrainers do silly things like explain the fart theory and make movies of themselves doing bimbo cheers and milo fuse. yes. that just sounded ODD.

im actually quite confused as to whether i should or should not step up as a leader. interning at matthew's group has been the ultimate best all this while and i really dont want it to end. i really love helping out with his group but im just not sure that god's calling me to this ministry. i guess ill pray about it first then see how lor. just keep me in prayer.

• 7:41 AM, Sunday, June 08, 2008

bc retreat was AWESOMELY AWESOME. :)

hehs. tired though. ill blog about it tomorrow.

how could i not be moved
lord here with you
so have your way in me
cos lord there is just one thing
that i will seek

FOCUS ON GOD. and mids. :S

• 5:19 AM, Wednesday, June 04, 2008

my day as a tourist :)

i havent been updating lately, but i shall, about something really funny i did yesterday. :)

i was at stacy's office really early to discuss games for the YLT retreat, yes you guessed right, i've been arrowed courtesy of stacy herself. :S anyway we got it settled pretty fast and i left, because i didnt want to disturb stacy and ian from doing their work, so i went to main church to pray for a while. and then i went to national library. i never knew it was so near to main church! :) and it was raining a bit but i had my brolly so it was okay! :)

anyway you know the crossing, at the kopitiam where the gappers usually go for supper? yeah i was standing there for like 5 whole minutes and then this lady came up to me and this is what happened.

LADY: hi miss, im from the press and i wanted to ask you about this traffic junction.
ME: (wondering what there is to ask about a traffic junction) errr, yeah sure.
LADY: did you see the sign across the road saying that it isnt in operation now?

(this is the part where i look across the road and wow surprise surprise i see a blue sign saying its not in operation until 5pm onwards.)

ME: (feeling very stupid now) errrr. now i do.
LADY: can i ask you why you didnt see it earlier? was it because your umbrella was blocking the sign?
ME: (feeling sillier and sillier by the second) errrr. no. i just had other---erm, things on my mind.

which wasnt a lie. i was thinking about why the traffic light was taking so freaking long to change. :S and why in the world is the press asking the public about a TRAFFIC JUNCTION? honestly. >_<

anyway i continued walking towards national library and then somehow along the way i started taking pictures of all the landmarks i passed! like some kind of tourist OMG. hahaha. everyone was doing double takes, and i bet they were thinking, "is this girl a tourist? but she doesnt look like a tourist!"

here are the pictures i took on my nice walk:

i think this picture is what set it all off. i was just walking by and its not every day you see your name in huge letters, so i thought it would be cute. so i took this picture and i got bitten by the tourist bug. PICTURES GALORE. :)

some funny looking sculpture thing outside my museum HAHAHAHA. :)

the old SJI building. you cant really see the words. and im sorry for not inverting most of my pictures! :S

SMU building although a bit dark from this angle.

CHIJMES. this picture was super hard to take! i took it about 4 times because there were always cars zooming by and blocking the words. and i even had to walk across the road taking this picture! and i think the people in the car were thinking, omg, what is this girl doing! :P

church of the good shepard. its really pretty! :) but i couldnt get a closeup. :(

DESTINATION REACHED! national library! :)

on my way back from national library! :) museum next to main church.

so that was my eventful day as a tourist of my very own country! :) but i shall do more random things like that from now onwards! its so much fun just walking around and looking at all these landmarks and thinking to yourself, why didnt i know this was here? it was just an amazing eye opening day and i really thank god for it! :)

anyway, been gyming lately. hehs. ran 4km yesterday and i just ran it today again! my goal is to run 4km in 20 min by the end of this june! :) i can do it! :)

jogging with elly welly this fri! cant wait it should be awesome! :)

and i think, im pretty blessed, when i actually stop to consider it all. :)

• 7:39 AM, Monday, June 02, 2008

need to start re-doing my purpose driven life! :) i've kind of abandoned it and the guilt is starting to catch up hehe. :S

school today as per usual. im amused at asyraf and i. goodness knows we're only sitting two seats away from one another or something like that and poof! in comes a message from asyraf. :) nice. we always end up making funny faces at one another anyway. oh well. its been a somewhat good start to a new week, ugh tomorrow's my free day but yet i have to be pw-ing with my group. oh well. at least im meeting stacy dearest in the morning. hopefully we can catch brekkie together or something, i know she's got glad's office.

i've somehow managed to get back into the world of fanfic-ing again after what a year of withdrawal? feels good though to be writing again. its like my oxygen. :P to see all the words pouring out just like that is strangely gratifying and leaves my fingers itching for more.

anyways. doing i kissed dating goodbye and its really good. i was reading it today and samuel POK that silly boy asked me, "are you dating anyone yet? then why are you reading it?" AIYO. anyway that reminds me we were competing as to who could finish more maths questions in that amount of time. silly boy's definitely smarter than me, so no surprise when he finished first. ANYWAY. i digress. IKDG's been awesome. spoke about alot of things that i agree with and i've been trying to apply them in my life, although i dont think its been easy. keep praying for me.

surprisingly, haircuts can go both ways. they can make someone look really good... or make someone look really...odd. nuff said. :) i think i've developed a EC radar oh goodness. :P

i'm going to bury you if its the last thing i do
but yet ill pray for god's will to resurrect you.

cause you're just the right one at the wrong time

• 6:09 AM, Sunday, June 01, 2008

today was a really good day.

went to church early, thank god i was there first for a change, glenny knows how i've always been a bit-- okay very late-- these few times i meet her for breakfast. :S sorry dear! anyway i was quite excited about the lesson that i prepared with matthew the day before and im glad to say it turned out really well! i was afraid that i would mess up in some way but just thank god i didnt! in fact it turned out even better than i imagined because they were actively participating and thank god for that. i hope the lesson made an impact on them in some way and im really growing to like matthew's cell group hehs. :)

that was basically the highlight of today.

im just really thankful to god. just thinking about how he's blessed me so richly, how he's changed me, when i was preparing the lesson with matthew. i was just reminded of my past in the grey chair and how now, in the green chair, things have just changed so much so--- i honestly cant imagine living each day without god anymore. thank you father. :)

it feels good to be saved. :)